This pain has to be with me forever..... !

I love my father  very much

I didn't feel anything after i lost him...

Everyone cried after he left... But not me

Not a tear came out  from my eyes....

If tears declare how much we love someone... Then even if I  cry all my life..

But.. It won't be enough to show my love to him..

I have no emotions.. Sometimes I feel like i am a cold hearted person ..

I loved my father so much that... I don’t think he has left me and gone away

I thought of expressing the emotion at the same time but

I did not want to express this sad emotion…

We have to hide few emotions all our life     

I have to continue this emotion .. so that I don’t forget my father …

This pain has to be with me forever..... !

~ AGONY ~

Many a fancy crowd
My heart
When i take to narrating
The heart's tales of others
Wherever I record the hearty
Feelings of others,
I forget my own self,
Of course, unnoticed
While pursuing the shadows of
Others, my mind escapes that of my own.
Taking the account of the wounds that others
Bear at heart, i fail realize
That my own heart is blood- stained.

The time i share the SORROWS made clot long
Of someone, my Own Agonies
Get on with for a way out
None ever pats my shoulder
Nor my back out of Sympathy.

This is when
A stranger comes about
with Utterances of high
Relations with me through
Kindred Syntax and ties
Me up with Affection
But mounts my Shoulder
Like the unwelcome vampire of the Myths
To question inaccessibly
Form the Dust to skies
From life to desire and salvation
She parts company
On listening to the right answer