Its hard to explain whats going inside my mind....

Its hard to explain whats going inside my mind.  I myself do not understand.... 

One moment i am happy i feel loved and then next moment i feel sad and ignored...

I like nothing will be ever perfect..  Like i want it to be..  I feel like everyone gonna leave me and go..

And i will be alone..  All alone..  I feel like everything is fake nobody really cares.

Its just that when they are bored..  They are with you and the moment they get someone else..  They will leave you and go..

Why cant everything be simple instead of being so complicated..? I don't know i i gonna get this answer...

My tEars...,.!!

Miss you

my eyes are ever clear
my eyes shed not a tear
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my tears are way too smart
my tears fall in my heart
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my tears never hit the ground
in my soul is where my tears are found
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my tears stay inside
my tears choose to hide
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my tears never cry outloud
my tears are much too proud
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yes, my eyes are clear
but, my tears are always here............!!

I AM ALONE...........!

when i am alone i think of so many things to say to u but, when i have chance to tell you i go speechless

ALONE I should , alone I fought
The nights were dark & the days were hot
Tears in my eyes , bloods in my Heart,
As i remembered the person,
Who tore my heart apart....

Alone i sat ,
Alone i thought
That the the bottle of life was
The sword seemed heavy my heart seemed heavier..
And u was left crushing myself for my foolish behavior

Alone i kneeled , alone i prayed.
But sadly kept on, feeling depressed.
Lucky for those who never face this.
As , i know how crippling & painful it is ..

Alone i am born alone i shall die
Where no1 will be there to remember me..
At last i leave my thoughts as the sand of two.
For other to learn & lead life on the line

Alone we are & alone we will be,
Struggling in this world , till our last breath may leave
Still whenever you have a doubt ,
Just close your eyes & Let your hear seek

Alone is lonely , alone is a must.
For us human beings, who live life just for the shake of living, beyond despair
Is the only reason to live sweet but rare?

Alone i finish this , alone shall be me.
Probably for the time being
But a ray of hope appear as strong as rope
Which will keep two souls, bound together unbroken. …

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,GOODBYE..................... :

Goodbye, my friend
There will never be an end
To what you've left behind
To the memories, preciously kept, in everyone's mind
Because you chose to walk away...
It was getting too hard for you to stay
You chose to walk away from your friends, from your life
Instead of just walking the sharp edge, you chose to use the knife
To put an end to the pain, to the hurt, to the tears
An end to the life that held all these, and an end to the fears
A better, happier place for you, somewhere out there, not too close, not too far
Maybe, that bright light at night, is your new found smile, creating a star

Thoughts of you, looking out at your smile
Haven't seen you in a while
Thoughts of you, happy as, without the help of drugs, or alcohol
No thoughts of the cause of your walking away, that black hole
The black hole, that swept the feet, and the life, out from under you
The black hole, making you think there was nothing else you could do
And so you did what that black hole told
Walking away, when you could have made it through
But now, too late, to bring you bring you back
No way now, to get your life back on track

There will never be an end........
To the precious memories of a lost friend
To the hurt, and the pain, those left behind feel
To the time it could take for that pain to heal
To the missing you, there will never be an end
Goodbye......,,,,,,,,,,..........